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April 24th, 2009
12:52 am
Well it's nice to find out that after being pretty ill all term, at least 5 of my housemates have been talking about me behind my back, calling me a hypochondriac among other things. These were people I considered friends. Not cool. Not an environment I care to live in for the next few months.
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May 10th, 2008
12:19 am
So freaking exhausted and ill . . .my allergies are making my throat swell. I thought that being done was supposed to be fun, not exhausting. Ah well, there will be plenty more nights to celebrate :-) At least I don't need to pack up my room yet
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May 8th, 2008
07:55 pm
My undergraduate career is done . . . wow. It's strange being at Smith having nothing to do and knowing that I never will again here. Weird.
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April 28th, 2008
02:38 pm
Can we have primal scream now??! Please!
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April 6th, 2008
11:20 pm
My thesis is done! It's 65 pages long, which is average for the English department. But it is done! Woot! I'm going out on Sat to celebrate, let me know if you want to join!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankhappyg.gif) happy
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April 4th, 2008
12:05 am
Tonight was fun. I went out to Packards with a bunch of Seniors in the house. I really like the Wilson seniors, they are very friendly. It was a good night. It was nice to be asked along.
At times when I feel let down, I find that there are plenty of other people out there who are supportive. I received a gift in the mail today from a friend who graduated in 06 ,whose dad died around the time that my Mom died. It was really sweet of her to remember me. She wrote on the card that she knew not having my mother at graduation would be hard for me and that she wished that it was a good day despite that. I also received random gifts of appreciation from my advisor and my boss this week. It is nice to feel not so alone.
The next few weeks are going to be hard for me. The anniversary of my mom's birthday is in a week and graduation, one of her last wishes before she died was to see me graduate from college, is also coming up.
Don't tell me "I don't have real problems to deal with" cause I do. Yes, I'm in grad school and I have a summer job, and honestly those have been the things that keep me going, but that doesn't mean that this time of year isn't a struggle for me too. One reason why I'm happy to leave this place is because I can leave the painful associations of my mom dieing and the depression that followed it my first year with Smith. I don't have to return to another fall where I am constantly reminded of the painful events of my first year.
I'm glad that I am blessed with many friends who are supportive and do not dismiss me as "petty."
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April 2nd, 2008
11:37 pm - senioritus ramblings
Thesis is due next monday! AHHHHH!
55 days . . . .until I'm out of here! yay!
I will be free of single-sex education for the first time in 8 years! woot
I can actually have the time to pleasure read again!
I can go home and cuddle with zorro
I leave my lovely smithies
(I'm trying not to dwell on that part cause I know I will dash across the country to see my favorites . . .maybe I'll bring back more
kittens!)
A little under 3 months until I go to the UK!
Senioritus is driving me crazy, but oh well.
I'm 99.9% sure I will be at the University of Durham next year. I'm very excited about it! I got in everywhere, but Oxford. Skarda made me feel like a failure yesterday for not getting into Oxford, but I'm not going to let her get me down. I'm happy. It's a great school. Durham looks like a mix between Edinburgh and Oxford. And Bill Bryson, the comic travel writer is Chancellor.
My college at Durham, St. Chad's has this hilarious day called St. Chad's day (how original): "St Chad's Day begins before sunrise with a noisy wake-up call, designed not just to wake up students, but neighbours as well. A pre-breakfast Pimm's Reception leads on to college invasions and then to a green breakfast. Students wear green clothes and body paint to their lectures and seminars, gathering at noon for a run around Palace Green, accompanied by the college's goat. The day ends with a Feast or a dance." (wikipedia)
I'm really excited about the Oxford program this summer. My boss has been wonderful. She left a box of cookies and chocolate on my desk with a card saying how proud of me she is for getting into grad school. :-)
It's nice to know that nearly everyone is supportive.
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March 27th, 2008
03:47 pm
So, now that I'm in grad school and only need a 3.4 to keep my offer, do I really need to finish my thesisor my other work for that matter? It's ever so much more fun to research supermarket locations in Durham. I've also started looking for possible job options for after next year. Bah thesis . . . why do I have to finish you?
Soo this is what Senioritus feels like!
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March 17th, 2008
02:17 pm
What an amazing day.
1. I went skating for the first time in 6 yrs and it was amazing. I used to skate competitively, but then I got really sick with the endometriosis and my coach was a jerk about it, so I never went back. I finally did today with my new skates and I did really well. Nothing fancy really, but I did a lot of stroking and edge work. It was so nice.
2. I got into Durham! Durham is the #1 English program in the UK according to the Times. It even beats out Oxford, which is #2. And it looks oh so wonderful. I even got my first choice, St. Chads, for a college. Durham, like Oxford, is divided into colleges. Squeee! :-)
Current Mood: ecstatic
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March 7th, 2008
05:03 pm
I feel like I'm dating the Smith English department and it is a mighty strange relationship. Off to dinner with Skarda.
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March 2nd, 2008
11:35 pm
Life has been pretty good. I like Smith, but I'm ready to be done. I will miss my friends, but I feel like I'm outgrowing this place. "I feel" like I've finally figured out what Smith English professors are looking for. Skarda is very impressed with how much I've improved. So is prof Seelig apparently, she read one of my papers aloud the other day in class. It was kind of awkward, but nice, at the same time.
I'm starting to miss England like crazy. Last Spring was one of the most amazing times of my life. The experiences, the people, everything. I'm ready to go back. I feel like I just belong there and am waiting to go home. I went to the bulb show today, and while the flowers were pretty, it reminded me of England in the spring with the wild daffodils and tulips everywhere. There's something magical about England in the spring. Less than four months!
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February 25th, 2008
01:27 pm - Pros and Cons
Cons: I caught some version of the Smith plague that is going around and have been very sick since friday. I'm starting to wonder if I'm getting
menopause because I am having hot flashes and night sweats. ew.
Pros: I must have looked so ill in class today that Sharon Seelig neglected to pick on me as per ususal.
I went to look at my official transcript and noticed that my cum gpa was up by .02, then I realized
that Skarda had recently entered an A as my first semester grade for my thesis
--> Last semester was my highest gpa at smith ever
I submitted my remaining grad school aps on Thursday and I recieved notification for Leeds today that they recieved it. Which means
with rolling admissions I will know sooner. I have restored faith in the US postal service
One of my friends from my first summer at Oxford will likely be studying as a grad student on the program
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February 20th, 2008
09:42 pm
I nominated Skarda for the Rally Day faculty teaching award and she won. She knows that I did it, because she has revealed her suspiscions twice, and I casually shrugged them off each time saying "maybe" or "possibly." I'm glad she won it. She is such an amazing woman who has helped me get through so much. I couldn't stop clapping when her name was called. I had no idea that she would win.
Current Mood: ecstatic
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February 18th, 2008
10:56 pm - Ready to be done vent
i must say that I am ready to pop the Smith bubble. I'm ready to go to grad school and be surrounded by mature people. I'm sick of the shrieking down the hallways at all hours, the pot smokers who don't have a clue how to mask the smell, the drunk first-years and upper-classmen who drink so much that they vomit, and people who don't clean up after themselves in common areas. I'm also sick of Smithies coming to class when they are too ill to function and spreading their germs, especially now that there is a serious outbreak of the flu on campus. Get me out. Oh and I'm also sick of the unhealthy Smith food.
3 months until graduation.
4 months and a week until I'm in the U.K.
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February 9th, 2008
12:51 am - Oxford Summer Seminar Reunion
Well that was fun and awkward at the same time. It might have been more fun if I wasn't feeling dizzy and out of it from my drug meds. But it was strange. People weren't as friendly as they used to be. The Smithies were, but idk it was strange. I also wasn't feeling very social. One girl from my summer came up to me and introduced herself which was kind of strange. It's weird that people would have forgotton me. I mean even if you forget my name, forgeting my existance on the program? That kind of put a damper on the evening. It was fun, but I spent most of the time with the smithies. I felt too out of it to mingle with others much. It also made me miss the people who weren't there. A lot of my friends who did the program have graduated and are no longer in the area. I might go out with some of the Oxford kids tomorrow night. I'm not sure. It could be awkward again and I don't really feel like going by myself.
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January 28th, 2008
02:50 pm
54 pages later . . . I am done with the first draft of my thesis! Now, do I really have to start homework for my new classes? It seems like first semester never ended.
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January 23rd, 2008
12:41 am
I am in love with my advisor, but then again what else is new?
She just took me out to a lovely dinner, and she has a $50 bottle of champagne waiting for when my first chapter is finished. :-)
I am not, however, in love with reslife training 9-5 Weds--Friday == Eww
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January 21st, 2008
12:42 am
Not mucht to update on, so I'm not sure why I am
I just want my thesis to be done and my grad school aps to be in.
Aside from that, life is good. My cat is adorable and I actually like being at Smith.
But I do miss England. Applying to grad schools over there is making me feel nostalgic.
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January 7th, 2008
06:16 pm
Are any of you other thesis writers out there lacking motivation? I'm returning to Smith tomorrow in hopes that I will find some there, away from the brand new 40in lcd with on demand that has sucked up all of my time . . .
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December 31st, 2007
12:02 am
Maybe I'm bitter about having nothing to do on new year's eve, but doesn't new years just seem like an arbitrary day?
Just a thought . . .
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